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Jim Cejka
There are things and events that happen in one’s life that have a deep and profound effect on a person. Then there are others that go beyond that, that touch one’s very heart and soul, that unconscious inner self that makes us us. That core, of values, principles, ethics, intelligence, that has been instilled in you by your parents, education, religion, friends, and experience, has guided us and led us through our lives, established who we are, and defined our look at the world and people around us. Those feelings are deep, but not untouchable.
I’ve had a few of those kinds of experiences, in Vietnam, in the life I’ve chosen. No amount of forethought or preparation will stop them, or lessen the impact they have on you. The “what just happened,” or “how did that happen,” have no answers, no alternatives. You are lost – no compass, no proverbial paddle.
At my age, those beliefs have been settled in for a long time, and there’s not much time to begin new ones. It’s a little late to build a new boat.
Sometimes, however, the best thing to do is nothing, which was my choice. Nothing for me was withdrawal, from people, from outside contact, from everything, take some time, to believe the unbelievable, and hope I can find a way to accept my age, myself, and a new reality. I needed to re-appreciate the good things I do have, through my family, church, VA, and others.
And, now, it’s Christmas, a time of joy and promise, time to be thankful for those gifts, and the blessings I’ve received, and hope for a future to come.
There is a tomorrow.
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asking a question about the website and realized he lives in Simi Valley which could be in a difficult place, although I'm not all that familiar with the L.A. area. Hope he's all right.
